“For I am afraid that perhaps when I come I may find you to be not what I wish and may be found by you to be not what you wish; that perhaps there will be strife, jealousy, angry tempers, disputes, slanders, gossip, arrogance, disturbances; I am afraid that when I come again my God may humiliate me before you, and I may mourn over many of those who have sinned in the past and not repented of the impurity, immorality and sensuality which they have practiced” (2 Corinthians 12:20-21).
Who are you now and what were you before the Lord awakened you to His presence? Do you live life with expectations and demands, or do you know that the Lord is Lord of all. There is that in-between place where the battle of faith takes place. Will you ultimately surrender to the Lord, or will you continue to insist that it be your will that is done. God grant that you come into His will.
Lord, a life of faith in this age is not easy. I want what I want and I want it as I want it. Lead me, O Lord, in the way of truth that I may surrender to the truth that You are Lord of all. Remove from me those sinful things that get in the way that I may now and always live according to what is right and pleasing in Your sight. Save me, Lord, from myself and free me to be what You are making of me.
Lord Jesus, You have accomplished what needs to be done that we might be free to follow You. Help me to not turn back, but see instead that in and through You is all hope and a future. Guide me, O Lord, in the way of truth that I may now and always walk in Your footsteps and live into the life to which You call me. Through all things, help me keep my eyes upon You. Amen.